Lately I have been challenging myself a bit more with some new ideas and more conservative designs, I have been thinking more of my marketability as a designer and a little less as an artist, this has created a creative conflict i swore ages ago i would never step into, yet here i am, and there is no grass for scrapping the bottom of my shoe clean.
I do believe in making a dollar for the work i produce, but being determined to only do work that moved my soul has proven that even though very rewarding once a piece finds a home, that can take longer than my pocket book has time for, so here i am, now discovering if i have what it takes, can i sell my work, is bending to a retail market selling out my soul, am i over thinking this ?

I feel awash with excitement in the expectancy of great new adventures this year, giddy in the prospect of reaching a wider audience with my work, I want to bring my special kind of leather work to the bigger world, dress everyone up in O so pretty sculpted beauties.wish me luck world, O! and be better to yourself while your at it because you deserve every good thing that will come to you. Kiss Kiss

most nights

As most late nights go this is all like the rest, I wonder about my past
feel restless in my present and wonder what the hell the future really holds.
Is it true that as we get older our regrets become companion on an ever turning ocean of what ifs.
I think tonight I might try for quite, rest my heart, and tell my mind to forget.
Tonight I may try to forget
Forget the looks the slight glances the almost never taken chances.
I don’t deserve the thought of you after all this time
I wont think of maybe that day, you told my you cared and I just giggled in disbelief.
I think if I put it all away I wont have these sleepless nights.
As most nights go this is like all the rest I wonder about you in my past, feel restless your not in my present and fear I may not see you in my future.

another sleepless night

I have had so many sleepless nights as of late I am now wondering what a full nights sleep really feels like to a body well mostly to a well working mind, I am starting to feel the frayed edges coming unraveled, only slight tassel torn now but I fear in another week I my lose the thread all together.